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[31 Jul 2006|11:18pm] |
Wow, Melly is updating. Its going to snow. XD
JOB: I got another one.. since I got fired from Pizza Hut.. haha. I now work at INFO NXX.. which is the 411 place. I'm the person you talk to for numbers. It's a job.. get paid 8/hr and I work 8:30am to 5pm everyday, off Tuesday and Saturday.. Couldn't ask for better hours.. I love it.. and then I hate it.. I have to drive like.. 45 minutes to work.. but then again, I do live in the boonies so it's expected.. and I have to go to sleep at like.. 10pm or 11pm, because I have to wake up at 6:30am just to get to work on time. I met two gay guys there.. and I love them sooooooooooooo much. Gay guys are the best!! mmhmm. My David walks me to my car everyday.. and My Corey calls me everyday and we are going to go get tattoos and piercings together. They are my little queers. Then I met some other people.. that I talk to everyday.. but they aren't gay.. so I don't need to talk about them. =)
LOVE: I found the perfect person for me.. too bad he lives in Kansas.. Hopefully I go there in December! I've known him for like 3 or 4 years now.. we lost touch and got back into touch.. if it wasn't fate then I don't know what it was.. One day.. I was strolling on myspace.. when I just happened to come across his girlfriends page.. I was like.. holy hell NO way.. so I saw pictures of him and her whatever, whatever.. then I found his page.. I was like.. -gasps- I got butterflies.. MELLY DOESN'T GET THOSE.. it showed that he was single.. but she wasn't?? So I was like whatever.. I shit you not.. a couple of hours later.. Ally asked to see her.. so I was like okkkkkkkkkkkkkkay.. and I went to the page.. and the pictures of her and him were no longer there.. I was like.. WTF??? So, that pushed me to message him.. and now.. three months later we haven't gone a day without talking. LOVE HIM. K.
So yeah, I guess life is on the right track lately.. I don't know where it will lead to.. you can only live day to day as it comes.. so that's what I'm doing. =) Hope everyone else is enjoying there summer that's almost over.. can you believe this year is going by so fast.. it's like.. FIVE months till CHRISTMAS already.. sheesh. I miss my ALLYness.. I hardly talk to her anymore.. but when we do talk.. we let it all out which is good, so I guess it's like I'm not really gone?? YET I AM. Cause of work. -shakes fist- OH and I have to actually dress like a girl at work.. it's driving me insane.. although I think I like it.. haha. Friday and Sundays I get to wear jeans, tshirts, and regular shoes to work though.. so that's a MAJOR plus. okay, well.. this is a good update.. REMEMBER I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
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[24 May 2006|12:30pm] |
I'm in love with a stripper...
Okay, so I'm a big liar.
Life sucks right now but when doesn't it?
I got fired for not taking a drug test..haha. How funny. I don't even do drugs, but I guess I'm stubborn. I took one when I got hired.. and one when I got my stitches put in..
It was the day I was supposed to get my stitches out, so I was just going to do them at the same time.. well.. what I didn't realize was the drug test expired at 4.. and my Doc Appt.. wasn't until 5. So I didn't get to make the drug test, well I went to work the next day.. and let my manager know.. and he let me work all that day.. I come in on Friday.. and he finally gets on the phone with Human Resources.. and he's like I'm sorry but I have to terminated you.. I'm all it's alright.. It's COOL. He didn't want to let me go, I'm a good working, yo. Yeah so I feel as if I was wrongfully terminated.. and I'm supposed to try to fight it.. but I'm lazy. And I HATE being on the phone..
Yesterday.. I was on the phone for 3 hours with the damn internet company.. trying to get this satellite shit fixed.. I had to talk to 2 fucking people from India.. and I couldn't understand them. =\ I was like SORRY, I don't mean to be rude.. but do you have any people that speak english REALLY good.. and the guy was like I am a sorry miss but ah itsa redirected to Indea now.. I was like.. FUCK.. Find me an english speaking person! lol.. and I got directed somewhere.. so I was like.. YES YOU SPEAK ENGLISH.. and the guy laughed at me.. I was like I've been on the phone with these damn people that barely speak english so you caught me off guard when you actually spoke it.. then we ripped him a new asshole for our internet sucking.. and then we had him laughing.. because he said we had been FAPPed.. or some shit.. and I thought he called us FAT.. lmao. I was like.. DID YOU JUST CALL ME FAT?!! lol. He was cracking up.. anyways.. we ended up spending more money.. and it still barely works? lmao FUCK direcway.. piece of shit.. NEVER GET IT IF YOU LIVE IN THE COUNTRY AND YOU WANT FAST CONNECTION, DO NOT EVER GET DIRECWAY. They suck ass.. okay.. so yeah.. this is my update?
Peace out Girlscouts.
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[13 Apr 2006|02:54am] |
:Update:
I quit my job.
Got a new one.
They are taking forever for my background check. DIE.
My sister had her twins.
They are still in the hospital.
Little babies.
I've only seen in pictures.
Damn hospital rules.
I started a diet.
I joined a gym.
I lost 6 lbs in 3 days.
My body aches.
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[15 Mar 2006|01:56pm] |
Eh.. Two dogs within a month of each other.. I'm having such bad luck.. She was one of a kind.. Only dog that would actually say I Love You back when you talked to her.. you could have a conversation with her.. and she'd speak to you.. agree.. and disagree with you.. she was trained.. when you said.. "Do you want to go outside side." She would run to the door.. and now it's no more..
No more I love you's.
No more of her laying on the back of the couch waiting for my dad to come home..
No more running to the door to go outside..
No more putting her paws on your legs so she could get into your lap..
No more doggy conversations..
No more Fatty. =\
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[12 Mar 2006|04:30am] |
Wow.. I've been gone for a while..
I guess this is an update.. not a whole lot been going on.. work still sucks..
My Grandma just had a heart attack.. they put a pace maker in her.. then she had triple bypass surgery.. I went in to see her on wednesday.. shes not looking to good, they have her on life support.. and man I just have a huge feeling she's not going to make it.. I don't know what to do without her.. When I didn't have a job.. she would call me every day.. and tell me to get a job then she'd hang up on me.. it was interesting.. but I loved it.. she was always a happy person always making weird faces.. you know those are the things you remember.. but i don't want to jump to conclusions cause you know it's just a feeling and you know.. sometimes those feelings can be wrong.. anyways..
enough.. i just had to get that off my chest.. and thank you again ally for listening to me.. LOVE YOU.
Mel.
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Update: Still working the shit job.. working too many hours.. and too many fucking doubles.. I'm tired of it.. but I can't quit until I find another job.. and I havent even looked.. Good thing is.. if the dinner manager quits.. it's mine.. I'm the next in line.. which I wouldn't mind having.. it's working the damn Early Bird shift that's kicking my ass.. They make me work Early Bird.. I get out at like 9am and then I have to be back at work at 4pm the same day.. it sucks.. Law is you have to have 8 hours in between shifts.. but this job sucks ass.. and does shit their own way.. -shakes fist- I should go to corporate and fuck with them.. but I don't..
Anyways.
I was at planet K.. I took my friend Jessica.. she'd never been there before so she was all excited and shit.. I took her to the back where they have all the sex toys and shit.. and she was freaking out.. one of the workers came over and asked us if we needed assistance.. and my friend is very blunt.. so she was checking out all the little figures.. lol.. then she asked the guy to put on the glasses that had the penis as a nose and he did.. so I took a picture of him.. Hes hot.
I also took her to the Adult Video Megaplex.. her reaction there was the best ever.. she was freaking out over everything in there.. she was like.. OH MY GOD, when you walk into a porn shop.. most people are quiet.. and looking around, they don't speak unless they are with someone you know.. well my friend was walking up to people there.. OH ARE YOU INTO THAT DOES IT REALLY WORK.. I was like.. oh dude, I'm walking away.. and I would walk away and then you would hear.. OH MY GOD MELISSA LOOK AT THIS.. I was like.. -walks over with head down- I don't know this girl. lol. It cracked me up though.. she was so amused with shit there..
My friend Chris's birthday party is on Saturday.. he really wants me to go, He's hot so I think I'll show up.. but I don't know what to buy him.. I guess I could ask him huh.. He's the one guy I met at work.. that used to come in like three or four times a week.. the guy in the band!! Sex. But he has a girlfriend, and I'm assuming he's very happy with her.. although everyone thinks he likes me.. which wouldn't be a bad thing.. cause he's super funny.. and he makes me laugh.. Damn him! -shakes fist- Their first concert of the year is on the 14th at the White Rabbit so who ever can make it go!! Band is called Drown The Fear.. HOT.
Christmas was alright, I got to buy my system.. although.. I broke my radio so now I have to wait another month so I can buy my new cd player.. so I can hook it up.. I'm paying for my satellite radio and I don't even have it.. I let my friend borrow it and he wont give it back.. so I'm thinking about cancelling it without him knowing.. lol. He told me it was in his impala.. I think he's full of shit.. he probably lent it out.. but that's cool.. I'll just cancel it.. haha. sucka. anyways.. My new years sucked too.. I was all about drinking.. I had the beer and everything.. and it got down to it.. and I didnt even feel like drinking anymore.. I was pissed off..
My aunt and her boyfriend finally broke up.. he hit her, and she beat the shit out of him and broke her pinky doing so, then my cousin chased him down the street with a knife.. he didn't get him thoug.. which is good, cause my cousin is in too much trouble as it is now.. anyways that fuck head stole my aunts wallet with her money and her credit cards.. he went to wal mart to buy 500 dollars worth of panties and bras.. for us to find out the weirdo was a fucking cross dresser.. then after he left, his sister found a big ass dildo in his bed.. what a fucking freak.. and I told my mom he was gay.. she told me he wasn't.. I said.. MOM IF HE LIKES A DILDO UP HIS ASS THEN HE'S FUCKING GAY. She's all no cause he won't do it with a man.. I'm like.. wtf that's still sick.. lol.
Okay, I think this is a good enough update..
Love You all.. Melissa.
P.S. Don't say anything about the song I'm listening too either, I've turned into a thug. okay.
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I love this song.. k.
Hello lonely
How you doin' today?
Hello sweet thing
Why don't you walk this way?
Hello, you again
How could you go and be so cold?
She said "Goodbye sad man"
Cuz all this pain is getting old
So why're you sad?
Don't you know that
It's you that holds my dreams and seems to always come back?
How do I live without you?
How could you walk away from this, just walk away from this again?
How do I live without you?
How could you walk away from this, just walk away from this?
Hello lonely
Now that you're gone I can move on
Goodbye sweet thing
Just know that I've been here all along
So why're you sad?
Don't you know that
It's you who holds my dreams and seems to always come back?
How do I live without you?
How could you walk away from this, just walk away from this again?
How do I live without you?
How could you walk away from this, just walk away from this again?
Again
Again
All those days you waste on me
I just can't let you go
So why're you sad?
Don't you know that
It's you who holds my dreams and seems to always come back?
How do I live without you?
How could you just walk away from this, just walk away from this again?
How do I live without you?
How could you just walk away from this, just walk away from this again?
How could you walk away?
(Again)
How could you walk away from this?
(Again)
Just walk away from this again
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Update: Work is stressing me out.. I got to the point where I went to the back and beat the shit out of the wall(the wall won).. I've sunk back into depression which isn't good, cause now I just mope around.. I've lost connection of myself and let it go.. Christmas is just around the corner and I'm dreading it.. I won't be able to enjoy it.. then.. the new year.. haha. I got all the buying of the presents out of the way though.. which is good.. My mother keeps bugging me about paying off my ticket.. $700 and I don't want to.. My aunt said she'd pay for it and I could pay her back.. But I don't want to be stuck paying her back.. I hate borrowing money.. I didn't even ask her.. my mother did. -shakes fists- I don't have a license.. haha.. Yet I still drive..
Last Night: I got kicked out of wal mart with four of my friends.. we were just walking around cracking up.. we checked out the XM radio.. and we turned it up loud and it was talking about.. Attack of the Chubby Vagina or some shit.. so it made us laugh.. then a lady walked by and was like keep that down.. and kept staring at us.. and my friend Jessica was like.. WHAT IM GOING TO BUY ONE. So she called the manager and we could hear him running.. lmao.. so we all scattered in different directions.. and met back up in the Sporting Goods section looking at the guns.. and the manager walks up and asks if we are the kids causing all the trouble.. and we are like no.. cause first off we werent.. secondly we weren't kids.. hah. so he gets on the radio and asks the girll can you describe what they were wearing.. and the pin point my friend Chris cause he has a fro.. lol. So, the man was like.. you guys need to keep it down and quit playing around.. my friend Jessica being a smart ass was like.. It's because he's a man of color talking about my friend Chris.. lmao. Omg.. the man almost put his hand on Jessica.. I was going to jump him.. and so was her boyfriend.. lol. So.. we was all you guys behave or I'm calling the cops.. well Jessica was like.. ooooooooooooooooookay.. and he's all WHAT DID YOU SAYYYYYY. lmao.. I turned to him and said.. She said OKAY. So he started walking away.. and we started laughing again.. and we could hear him on the radio saying.. call the cops these kids arent cooperating.. WE WERE JUST LAUGHING. So Jessicas boyfriend took off cause he just got out of jail and didn't need to go back.. The manager came back up to us and he was all you guys need to stop acting up.. I looked at him and told him.. We didn't do anything wrong, we didn't mess up anything, we didn't throw anything on the ground, and he's like I don't want to argue with you.. I said I'm not arguing I'm letting you know how it is.. and he got mad at walked away.. then we all seperated again.. and went to the baby clothes.. Simon went out the car.. and called us and he was like the cops are here.. lmao. Omg we couldn't stop laughing.. so we started walking toward the front of the store and saw the cop with the other two guys we were with.. lmao.. and he looks at us and he's all are you part of the group.. I said yeah we are.. but they weren't doing anything.. lmao. And I told him all we were doing was listening to the radio.. he's all I know but you need to leave just for tonight.. he wants you out of the store.. I was like alright whatever.. so we are getting to the door and all the workers are all standing around like they are going to do something.. hah. it was some funny shit.. and Jessica was like.. I've never been escorted out of Wal Mart before.. this is pretty cool and we start laughing again.. the cop was getting mad.. but we went out to our cars lol.. then stayed in the parking lot for like five minutes.. then sped out of it.. lol. It was a fun night!!!
OY: I bought some new cd's, well not brand new.. but new to me.. I bought a Rasputina double disc cd for $5.99 then I bought the Gravity Kills album for $2.99 An MTV cd like.. back in the day.. for $3.99 and an afro man christmas album for $2.99.. I love bargains! Sam Goody's used cd's are the besttttt.
Okay.. I think that's a good enough update.. mmhmm.. Word to your mother.. K. Bye.
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[28 Nov 2005|09:14am] |
I just got home from work..
I was getting ready to leave.. and my area manager walks up to me.. and he's like.. I need to speak with you.. I was like great, what did I do now? I couldn't think of anything I did wrong.. everyone has said the store has been super clean since I've been back.. hah.. anyways.. He's all have a seat.. and he had a paper.. I was like.. wtf is this all about.. and he starts talking about how our sales for whataburger have been good and etc. etc.. I'm like okay.. get to the point.. and he hands me an envelope with my name on it.. I'm like.. umm.. okay? so I just sit it there as he continues talking.. and he's all open it up.. and I was like.. It's not going to make me cry is it? and he laughed at me.. so I open it.. and there's a $100 dollar bill in it I was like.. whoa.. some appreciation thing.. so I was like.. ooo money! So I'm driving home.. and I'm thinking.. Whataburger isnt all that bad.. it's not great.. but they have good benefits and shit.. and they just hand you money. I've been with the damn company over a year.. and they have never handed me money before.. I could get used to this..
Friends: I finally got to hang out with my best friend.. I had to pay for her to eat.. but its alright.. its not like I do it all the time anymore.. I actually talked to Andrew too.. first time in over a month.. it was nice.. we were texting.. then he asked if I could call him.. I was like sure? So we talked for an hour on the phone at work.. until we started getting busy so I was like I'll talk to you later.. He wanted to go up and bothe:r me.. but he said it was too cold to ride his motorcycle..
Family: My daddy is home.. it's good, but I think he's leaving again.. makes me sad.. Cause I enjoy him being here.. He still doesn't know about my tattoo.. =O I don't know how I managed to hide it this long..
FRIDAY: Andypoo, hopefully I get to go with you.. oh oh.. and I have money too. Muahaha.. Mom was like.. can I borrow money.. I was like.. =O Use the money in my bank account fool! She wanted to take my hundred dollar bill.. SO, I go out on whataburger.. If I'm able to go!
Okay.. it's now.. 9:23a.m and I have to be back at work at 4:00p.m. until 12.. or something.. so anyways yeah.. I think it's time for sleep since I have to wake up at 3:00p.m. ish..
Farewell to all.. and that's a small update.. okay.. bye.
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Update:
Not much been going on, I finally got a raise at work.. and they have my ass working so much.. when I'm off I sleep.. I finally got to see my best friend.. it's been a while.. and she did move in with that girl after all.. it sucks.. I loved going to her house.. when she lived in town.. now she lives outside of town like me.. but further away.. which is no problem.. I have a car I would drive over there.. but she should be equal.. and I know it won't be..
Family: They finally moved out, I'm so glad.. it's just like.. whoa.. then everyone will be here for Thanksgiving next week.. the first one we've ever had here at the house.. both sides of the family are supposed to go.. AND MY DADDY IS COMING HOME.. I MISS HIM.. he won't be home to stay though.. it will only be for about two days.. and then we also get our cable in every room.. He'll leave then come back in Christmas.. and probably stay here which is exciting.
Work: One of the managers is keeping me on her good side which is alright.. She called me the other morning.. talked to me for like 30 minutes on the damn phone.. telling me all the gossip.. I was like.. great.. I wanted to hear this? Then.. she calls me back like an hour later.. and asks what I'm doing after work.. I'm like taking all these people home.. why? She asked if I wanted to go over for breakfast.. hah. I work with her tonight.. so we will probably be in the damn office all night.. that lady can talk.. which is alright with me.. but when it gets busy.. I always get out there and help.. that's what I'm here for!! lol. The people I work with are great.. it's just the job I dislike. =\ I work from 8pm to 2am.. what kinda shitty hours are those?
Okay.. So that's an update of some sort.. I leave here with these lyrics.. because they are beautiful.. and it's the song I'm listening to at the moment.. it's fitting. =)
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I stood on mountaintops
That overlooked the world
I can't find anything
Except a void inside
I went to places where
I could forget your name
I can't find anything
Except a void inside
I don't have anything
Because I don't have you
I don't have anything
What can I buy to make
The sky turn blue again
Where can I go to feel
Like I'm alive again
Show me the places
Where I can forget your name
I can't find anything
Except a void inside
I don't have anything
Because I don't have you
I don't have anything
I've been stripped of everything
Except some flesh that bleeds
And I've been robbed of everything
Except a soul, except a soul
That needs...you, sweet you
I don't have anything
Because I don't have you
I don't have anything
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Farewell All.
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So.. There was nothing there with Andrew.. we tried.. it didn't work.. which is okay.. I knew something would go wrong.. I went in with my head high.. and I'm walking out with my head high.. sure I liked him and he did make me happy.. I was comfortable with him.. but you know.. shit happens.. That's a good saying lately.. Shit happens.. cause it all honesty.. it really does.. we shall remain friends.. but I will drift away from talking to him.. it sucks.. going EVERY day talking to him.. to barely talking at all.. but you know thats how I cope with things.. he's all "I didn't want to hurt you.." Um.. Im not hurt fool. I knew it would happen sooner or later.. rather now before I really did fall for him.. If he wants to talk he will have to make the first move.. cause I'm sure not going too.
THANK YOU ANDY FOR BEING YOURSELF AND CARING!! -hearts-
Family: I'm really ready for my relatives to move the fuck out.. I got up and cleaned the whole fucking house took me 45 minutes.. which isn't a long time but fuck, they are grown kids.. they should learn to pick up after themselves.. so I had a talk with them.. I wake up today.. the fucking house is a mess AGAIN.. I'm getting really tired of this shit.. they need there damn electricity.. for real! Messy ass kids.. Mom is out of town until Monday night. This is the longest I've been without her.. it's weird.. but it's okay.. she went to see my dad who is still working in Mississippi.. been there for about two months now.. he's finally making good money since the new guy is actually paying him.. he makes $2000 a week.. which is excellent..
Best Friend: Who? Eh.. to make a long story short.. she got a boyfriend, forgot who the fuck I was.. It's funny.. how you can be there for someone for so fucking long.. then they get a boyfriend and they are like.. Who's Melissa? What? I'm supposed to be her best fucking friend.. and does she even bother to call me.. does she even tell me.. OH I MOVED. I FORGOT TO TELL YOU!! Fuck..
Work: I moved stores.. they want me to become the over night manager.. but I want away from night shift.. I'm fucking 22 years old.. with no fucking life.. I need to go out..
Life: Oh, it sucks. I got a letter in the mail.. I'M GOING TO JAIL. Hah. I have to pay.. $683 before I can get my license renewed.. It's great.. so I told my mom I'd turn myself in so I don't have to pay shit.. and just do time served.. she won't let me. =\ I'm tired of this bullshit right now.. whatever.
The End.
The song lies..
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Oh Man. Andrew and I kissed for the first time. =O It was cute.. cause.. our faces just started getting closer.. then.. our lips were touching.. and we kept talking.. just never kissing.. and I kissed him.. and he pulled away.. and he was all.. NO.. then he went back in kissed me.. then pulled away again.. and was all NO.. I was like.. ajsd;fjasdfkljaf damn you!! You suck.. he's all.. I know.. then kissed me again.. awe it was cute. I think I'm falling for him.. but we aren't even together.. it's weird.. I talked to him almost everyday.. if we miss a day it's odd.. but we make up for it.. talking for 2 hours on the phone.. over nonsense stuff.. I don't know.. it's weird. I really do like him.. but I'm still skeptical about the whole situation.. cause if I'm just his friend.. and we do what we do.. I don't want to imagine how he is with his other girl "friends" you know? Anyways.. I had to post that.. cause yeah.. it was super. XDD Happy Melly is a good Melly.. I haven't been like this in a while.. So you can blame him for me never being here!!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!!
Tah Tah! Up Up and Away!!
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So it's later..
Andrew and I are supposed to go look for costumes today.. but nooooo he won't answer me. =\ I actually woke up early.. which I never do if I don't have to.. I've been working a lot of early bird.. but running the shift.. I guess I'm doing alright.. they haven't told me anything bad yet.. I want away from early bird.. that was the whole point in me coming back.. I really like working mornings.. I get out early.. and have time to do shit.. My mom has been using my car again.. and not putting fucking gas.. HELLO I work for that shit.. and she just uses it.. she gave me $20 last time for it.. where's this weeks? =P I'm so money hungry.. I just think the kids should ride the bus.. I had to ride the bus most of my school.. except for the last two years.. one year cause the neighbor picked me up.. the other cause I had a damn car.. It's so unfair with the way shit is these years.. I feel so old when I'm like.. I REMEMBER WAY BACK WHEN I USED TO RIDE THE BUS.. I'm eating chop suey.. mmmm it's good. I've been collecting bracelets.. those fat rubber ones.. like the livestrong.. the first one I got was my Whataburger one.. which is orange.. I'm dedicated to work! Hah. They just keep adding up.. and it's cool cause its not any of the ones people buy in the stores.. my mom gets them free in the mail.. anyways.. some lady gave me one in the drive thru the other night.. she told me what it was for.. but I forget.. I have a bad memory sometimes.. I rearranged my room.. it looks super weird.. and you run into things when you walk into the door.. hah. -sneeze- It's cool though.. looks a bit bigger I guess.. I washed my sheets and mmmmm when I fell asleep in them.. I was in a cloud of fabric softner.. Andrew always tells me I smell clean.. shit everyone tells me that.. I'm like.. thanks.. I take showers?! He smells super good.. like.. he can come over.. and when I take him home.. and then come back.. my room and bed smells like him.. I'm like.. -sniff sniff- He wears some Chanel for men or some shit.. it's really good so who cares! John came into work last night.. I waved at him but that was it.. they kept calling me over to the table.. but I didn't go. Hah. Loser. I was like.. I'm cleaning? So I looked like I was busy.. I don't want to talk to him anymore.. =\ He annoys me like whoa! Andrew was all you shouldn't be mean to him.. you know how he is.. I was like.. I was seriously cleaning!! He laughed at me. =\ If you don't remember John.. he's the one I crushed on for like 5 years.. and I'm finally over him. =) Now it's just an annoyance.. and I'm only nice to him because he's Andrews best friend.. haha. I can't wait till income tax comes.. I need to fix the minor shit on my car.. and then buy a system and new exhaust for it. I can't wait.. I always plan this shit.. and it always falls through.. so I hope it really happens this time.. or I could take the money and put it as a down payment for an apartment or something.. I really need to get the hell out of here and get my own place.. I'm tired of my mom saying.. you don't need Andrew here that late at night.. I respect my mother enough not to do anything with him in her house.. shit.. I respect myself enough.. but she assumes something is going to happen.. but that's cool I understand.. she's old fashioned..
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Evergreen Terrace - Untitled.
You say, everything comes if you don't turn your back.
I wait everyday sometimes its patients I lack.
Because it's just.
More of the same, More of the same.
And I just need you to remember my name.
More of the same, More of the same.
And I just need you..
It takes all of me to keep my eyes off of the floor.
This makes tomorrow seem harder than ever before.
Because it's just.
More of the same, More of the same.
And I just need you to remember my name.
More of the same, More of the same.
And I just need you to remember my..
Why does this seem to be right in front of me.
Entangeable dreams we persue.
Why it's so hard to see is he looting me.
I can't believe that it's true.
More of the same, More of the same.
And I just need you to remember my name.
More of the same, More of the same.
And I just need you..
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Anyways.. this is the update everyone has been waiting for! I leave here with these beautiful Lyrics by Evergreen Terrace, it's on the Sincerity Is An Easy Disguise In This Business album. Very soft song. I love it.. Acoustic!!
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[24 Oct 2005|02:21pm] |
So I haven't updated in a while..
Family: Them being here is driving me insane.. I cant take it anymore.. I love them to death but I can't live with them!! My mom feels the same way..
Andrew: I'm so confused.. I can't figure out if he likes me back or not.. I told him I liked him.. Which is new to me.. normally I'd hold the shit in but noooooo. I told him. =O I'm proud of myself.. he acts like he likes me.. then I think about it.. and I'm like.. he only wants a piece of ass. He likes my boobs.. hah.. He finally took me for a ride on the motorcycle.. it was fun.. he kept ducking so all the wind would hit me in the face.. I was like.. jalds;fjasldfkj stop fool! He makes me listen to rap.. I'm a thug now. Hah. Fo sho.
I have to go to work! Update later.
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[02 Oct 2005|06:33am] |
Interesting Night: Hah. I was at work.. and this guy that comes in atleast once a week.. or so.. he's in a car club.. Hellraisers! He's nice.. anyways.. he was sitting on the bench waiting for his sister and her friends to come out.. and I was like.. "How can I help you?" he's all.. 'I'll have your name and your number please.' I was like are you serious? he's all yeah.. then told me.. he should have asked for it last time he was there.. it was so effing cheesy.. but I gave it to him.. lmao. Then some guy gave me pizza through the drive thru.. I threw it away.. but still I was all.. "AWEEEEE You brought me pizza!!" and he gave it to me.. Hah. I love people they are idiots.. Then my friends from the band.. they are going to miss me. =\ Cause next week.. I move to the new store.. farrrrr away.. they said they would come in and visit me.. it would be cool if they did.. but I'll be working days! So I can go visit my old people at my old store.. cause I'm going to miss them much! My band guys said on my last day.. they are going to fill up my damn lobby with people.. and make me take like.. 50 orders and once.. I was like.. I'll beat you guys up! you better not.. I think those would be the only customers that I'll miss.. they come in like.. 4 times a week.. I give them free shakes! Shh, don't say anything.. Anyways..
Family: I got into a fight with my mom the other day.. cause she's dumb.. and yeah.. that's why.. okay.. then my aunt has been sleeping in my bed.. with MEN.. where do I sleep? IN MY CAR. -shakes fist- My fucking bed.. my fucking room.. and I sleep in my FUCKING car. Ugh. When will it end? WHEN SHE MOVES OUT!! if I prayed.. hahh. My dad leaves again tomorrow.. or monday.. for Mobile, Alabama.. I can stop hiding my tattoo once he leaves.. XDD Daddy is against them.. mmhmm.. even though it says Mom.
Work: Sucks. One more week at my current store.. then I'm out fool!
Andrew: -glee- He's awesome.. makes me laugh and stuff.. he bought a bike yesterday.. it's a cruiser.. beautiful.. I can't wait to ride it! There are some things my best friend tells me about him.. that he's never told me.. and I want to ask him.. but it's personal stuff you know.. that if he wanted me to know.. then he'd tell me himself.. She told me.. that a few years back.. he got real sick.. from like.. Lukemia? or something of that sort.. and that he gets a check.. which you know.. I don't really care.. I mean.. yeah.. I'll be scared that something could go wrong.. he's someone I could see myself dating.. but I won't persue it.. we've talked EVERY day for over a month.. I got my phone bill.. $187 in text messages alone.. hah.. All him.. but that's alright.. he's worth it..
Consider that an update. mmhmm.
Melissa.
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[20 Sep 2005|09:14pm] |
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-waves- Lookie I'm alive!!
So things have happened.. and I really don't talk to J or R that much anymore.. I got a new friend!!! We will call him A. He's super sweet.. and doesnt make me pay for things.. He makes me happy he's funny and etc etc.. He took me to see "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" I was dissapointed from the way the previews make the movie look.. but the movie wasn't all that bad.. it gave me the chills.. one time through the whole movie.. it wasn't that it was scary.. just for some reason when the demon started talking it gave me chills.. RAHH.. it gave A chills too.. lol.. He's all I thought it was my phone vibrating.. Silly boy. Then he took me to get Fajitassssss mmmmmmmm! We came back to the house and started watching The Ring 2.. I have it but never watched it.. it was boring.. mmhmm.. Now I know why I didn't watch the second half.. J and A are best friends.. so J kept texting him and asking where he was and etc.. so A told him he was with me.. and he's all hold on my hands are busy.. and saying all this stupid shit.. so J actually thought I had sex with A and he's all give me her number I want to see if shes' still awake.. he didn't know he was still at my house.. funny shit.. He calls me and I play along with the whole scene.. then asked him if he was mad at me.. haha.. He's all.. Do you feel weird.. I'm like no.. why.. He's all cause you used to like me a lot and now you are messing around with my best friend.. he's like a brother to me.. I was like OH, I DIDNT KNOW THAT.. Awe. I could hear the sadness in his voice.. I was like.. J I'M JUST KIDDING FOOL, YOU KNOW ME BETTER THEN THAT.. funny funny shit..
Job: I'm switching to days! Going back to my old store, I'll work the graveyard shift for a few weeks while I train some other girl.. but after that.. I'm going to days.. I'm excited!! It's been over a year since I worked days.. I cant wait.. I get to go out partying now..
Family: Starting thursday.. my aunt will be living with us.. her and her three kids.. Wednesday my daddy will be back from Alabama.. for one whole day.. then he leaves again.. and will be back again next week!
Friends: I miss my Girlfriend so much, I hate the fact that we are so far apart!! Angel move to TexASS you can come live in my closet! It will fit a full size bed in it! XDDD I don't really talk to my best friend anymore.. because of the fact.. she was pissed off one day.. and was all.. I wish everyone would just go home.. I was like.. PEACE flower.. I'm out.. So I left.. I mean I went over there a few times.. but didn't stay for as long as I used too.. I haven't been there since.. Friday or so.. but whatever that's cool. I haven't seen her for a week I think.. cause she wasn't home friday.. it's not like I'm missing anything.. they just use me.. take me here.. take me there.. buy me this.. buy me that.. can I use your phone? You know what.. I did it out of the kindness of my heart.. I'm not a selfish person.. if you needed something.. hell yeah I'd buy it for you.. Id give you the world if I could.. especially her.. that's something you do for your best friend.. but it took me.. 5 or so years.. to realize.. she wouldn't do the same for me.. it sucks.. I would drop everything for her.. I even got my own mother mad at me because of it.. Which is pretty stupid on my part..
Tah Tah. Love you all very much..
Melissa.
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[29 Aug 2005|05:26pm] |
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Rahhh. I got a new tattoo!!! It's on my wrist, J did it for me. -glee- It hurt like a bitch.. but I was told I was the only girl that didn't yell.. OW, STOP STOP STOP STOP.. I like pain.. mmhmm. It was done with only 1 needle instead of 3 or 5.. so I took a little longer.. about 2 hours.. I got it done this morning when I got out of work. =) Excellent..
Story Behind Tattoo:
When my mom was growing up she always wanted a flower tattoo right on the bone of your wrist.. but I knew she was to chicken to ever get it done.. SO I told her I would do it instead of her getting it done.. she agreed to let me have it.. It's Purple because that's her favorite color.
-New Tattoo-
Update: My dog dutchess is still alive, she's finally walking again and getting in our way.. she is still hurt but she's healing pretty good, I think they wanted to throw her out already.. she goes outside to go to the rest room now, which is excellent.. cause now I don't have to pick up big piles of shit. -shakes fist- But all in all.. she's doing great!
Entry: J bugged me all night at work, kept asking me when I was getting out.. asking for my friends numbers.. for me too hook him up.. I was like.. man hook yourself up.. and then I had to call him for my boss Rachel.. cause her husband wants his cross colored in.. so I called him and I was all talking cool with him on my cell phone lol.. at work.. but that's cool cause he's going to color in the tattoo for him, for free. I get the hook ups.. now Justin and Julio from work want tattoos too.. but they want full sleeves and back pieces.. which is hella hard to do with one needle.. so I doubt J would do it.. I mean it would be money in his pocket.. cause his ass doesn't have a job.. but shit.. that takes a while to do.. okay.. well this is an update.. XD talk to you guys later.. Peace out..
-Melissa.
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[26 Aug 2005|01:41pm] |
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So yeah.. I finally got to hang out with J.. -claps- Definantly worth every hour. =) I talked to him on the phone for two hours.. he wanted phone sex.. lmfao.. I couldn't stop laughing.. He was serious. o.= anyways.. I told him everything I had ever held back from him.. he was like.. why didn't you ever tell me? I'm a shy person. =\
The good guys always get hurt.
It sucks.. he's been hurt so many times.. cause he can't pick the right person.. when they are stareing him straight in the face. =\ My mom absolutely adores him.. has since day one back in 10th grade. We were just talking about old shit that had happened.. back in the day.. it was great to talk to him again.. I really hope we keep in touch this time.. I don't want to be torn between J and R though.. Ive come really close to R.. almost could be one of my best friends.. don't know what I would do without him.. I'm trying to get them to talk again.. Angela is as well.. Hope it works.. My mom asked J to come mow the yard.. lmao.. she's going to pay him $50 to ride around on a lawn mower.. he was like.. why not.. I don't have anything else to do.. He has no job.. but he's trying.. He's going to be a daddy too.. He's excited.. but iffy about the situation.. there is a possibility the baby isn't his.. Part of me wants it to be.. part of it doesn't want it to be.. My sister is pregnant.. My mom said they come in threes.. I was like great.. I'll be the next one.. hah. Which wouldn't be a bad idea.. my parents would be there for me no doubt about it.. I just need a sperm donor.. lmao. -Insert Application Here- Okay Okay.. Just kidding.. I mean if it happens it happens.. but oh well.. Why am I saying this? lmao.
Enough is enough.. Love Love you all..
Love you most of all Girlfriend.. I miss you tons too.. Sorry I'm never around. =\
-Melissa.
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[25 Aug 2005|04:50am] |
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I love him so much it hurts..
I was supposed to spend time with J today.. he kept calling me.. but I was with R (his cousin) at the time.. they don't like each other.. =\ big falling out.. not enough space to explain.. J was like.. stay at my house.. and I would have.. except I didn't want to leave my best friends house.. and be like.. okay I'm going to J's house.. peace.. that's rude.. He was like.. I miss talking to you, and I want to spend time with you.. It was weird.. he called me the other night on my way to work.. and I didn't think anything of it.. he wanted to hang out but was dissappointed when I told him I was on my way to work. =\ He's special.. and wants to go with me when I pierce my nipples.. lmfao.. but so does R.. cause I went with him to pierce his labret.. he's like.. a piercing for a piercing.. I'm like.. uh huh..
Another Note:
I got higher than a mother fucker today.. I hadn't smoked since.. shit.. February I believe.. it was relaxing.. R was driving so I didn't have to worry about shit.. we went to the park and we were on the swings.. I was just staring up at the stars.. I wanted to just fall back and let go.. it was great.
So yeah.. Not a lot has been going on.. just spending time with my best friend again, I've missed it so much.. I got my new tires.. so I'm not on an effing donut.. and no more blow outs for a while.. I've had such bad luck.. I had to borrow money from my aunt though.. but she gave it to me without a problem.. $320 for all four tires.. wooo.
Names don't need to be known. J and R. =)
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I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah.
You've built a love, but that love falls apart.
A little piece of heaven turns to dust..
Listen to you heart.
When he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart.
There's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going.
And I don't know why.
But listen to your heart.
Before you tell him goodbye..
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worth while.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah.
They're swept away, and nothing is what it seems.
The feeling of belonging to your dreams.
Listen to your heart.
When he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart.
There's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going.
And I don't know why.
But listen to your heart.
Before you tell him goodbye..
And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mention, but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic, the beauty that's been.
When love was wilder than the wind.
Listen to your heart.
When he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart.
There's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going.
And I don't know why.
But listen to your heart.
Before you tell him goodbye..
Listen to your heart, mmm mmm.
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Be happy?
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[24 Aug 2005|10:11am] |
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A long narrow path leading to nowhere.. Goodbye.
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